i hate salmon now

I think I am allergic to Salmon.
hidung sakit
ive tried different cooking, even beli yang dah siap masak, i still cant stop myself from sneezing
at first i thought it was my cooking but it wasnt at all, cuz ive tried other types of salmon.
dieeeeeeeee
so Umi, Ngahni there is no way pizah nak beli smoked salmon. back to cereals and breads now .
hehe

fizah.

just to let you know

i cooked SALMON hari ni. sila la jeles.
kat cnie banyak SALMON.and not bad.tak mahal pun.
hehehe

kursus kawin

ada orang ajak pi kursus kawin -______-'''

kat newcastle ada satu and warwick ada satu
and cuma 5 GBP
diorang cakap kat Malaysia mahal

as if I am going.
tak kowt!!

tunggu 2nd year or 3rd year la.

awal laaa nak pegi masa 1st year.
memang la ada orang bg alasan it is okay nak pegi awal sbb utk cari ilmu, but right now want to get other knowledge first

dalila wani fatin dayah is going
so?
sorry friends im not joining.

memang la sijil seumur hidup
tapi nanti la i'll go with my future husband together
baru bessssssst kan :)

from my point of view,
in UK, banyak sangat ceramah pasal2 bab kawin, bab cari pasangan hidup, bab cinta, bab love of life.
and slalu quote 'good guy for good girl, bad guy for bad girl'..cinta semanis kurma la..strawberry love la
ok fine. bagos la nak buat benda2 camni.

tapi cam banyak sangat . sikit2 ok bulan ni Uni ni buat talk pasal cinta then bulan depan uni lain plak.

ada ja ceramah pasal hal lain tapi from what i see bnyk je benda ni.

and i am bored with this stuff

Please talk something more universal. there are lots of other stuff that people can talk about.
and what interest me, not the event made by any islamic malaysian society.
i am more interested to the events organised by the islamic society yang matsaleh pnya.
much more interesting .

went to Sister Social semalam.for the first time.
banyak muslim sisters from different countries with different backgrounds. ada arab ada nigerians ada local.
now they are talking what i want to hear.
they made me think until i got headache seriously.
much more interesting and the usrah i went that day.
VERY VERY DIFFERENT!!!!!
the way how they think sangat2 la lain.
but it is good that I am joining both.

now Umi you dont have to worry much,
I still have Muslim people surrounding me.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


fizah.

ive tried all the rice..
my advice : do not eat those.
tasted very disgusting like rubber, mmg la kenyang tapi x sedap langsung!!!
i guess kena force jugak masak or back to cereals and breads this week

fizah.

laziness

Dear ayah, I am proud to be your daughter as ayah boleh masak hueehuehuee

but pity, I am a lazy person ~ cooking is just not my thing

and by the way, salmon sangat la murah but i dont like the salmon that ive cook

ayah masak salmon lagi sedap

Dear Umi, pizah rindu masakan umi sangat2. I cant avoid penyakit malas masuk dapur here. I wont get fat here as I'm loosing weight sebab tak makan sebab tak nak masak sebab pizah fail bab masak2 ni hehehe

Dear Pakngah and Ngahni, pizah dah jumpa dah nasi yg boleh sumbat dalam microwave yang pakngah cakap dulu. my life has never been easier :)

Dear Hana & Hadi & Bulah, nanti kakak balik Malaysia, kalo kakak masak, hampa smua kena makan ye. sedap tak sedap lain kira. hospital dekat ja.so jangan risau.

Dear cikti & cikadi, pizah nak makan laksa! laksa kat kedai cnie laksa pelik2.eww

:)))))

I am happy that Sainsburry buat sale makanan macam ni. 

so I wont be eating cereals and bread everyday 

hehehe

sekian.

fizah.

so today I wore baju kurung cuz it was warm this morning and I cant figure out what to wear. i think i need to do shopping for clothes.
and perasan kurus sekajap. I'm not so sure is it just me or my baju smua dah longgar. baju kurung sngt longgar, my tight jeans tiba2 jadi loose jeans, seluar slacks hitam kena pakai tali pinggang kalo tak londeh nanti.
so I went and check my weight , I am 43 kg now. I do remember I was 50 kg before I came here to UK.
but smua orang asyik cakap chubby jaaa. ye la kan ada orang jeles sebab makan hagen Daaz setiap hari, tapi im loosing fat here. penat kowt panjat bukit.
so i guess i lost 7 kg!!!!!
maybe hasil malas masak. bukannya malas nak masak pun cuma Im too busy to be bothered untuk makan. I skipped lunch and sometimes dinner. breakfast is still a must.
and I dont want to cook cuz all perkakas dapur including spoon fork knife expecially pisau potong daging dah contaminated . kalo x nampak i think i dont mind but nampak depan mata, and the smell, i dont feel like using those stuff
(0_o)
since when Ive become this sensitive??
sebab bau yg sngat meloyakan
i should buy new pots and new plate and new spoon/fork, but i dont want to spend money on that.
I rather use that money to buy my arts stuff.
so until March maybe..or maybe smpai next term or jun perhaps I might not cook kowt.
It is possible.
I can survive with cereals and bread.
tak mati pun
hidup je lagi.
and yeah i'll eat rice if there is invitation to peoples house of when Im travelling.
owh
did I tell that I went to my first usrah last Friday.
dah bgtaw kan?
or blum?
The thing is it was not what I was expecting and it was NOT what I want to learn.
so conclusion : I'll give myself a chance for 5 times ONLY of going to usrah .
If I think nothing come out for me, or I feel I dont like it, I'll stop going.
If I do think I like and enjoy it, ill continue.
yeah i know usrah is good and get knowledge and bla2 bla2 bla2.
but different people has different perspective on everything. so please respect my opinion on this matter and stop telling me I'm wrong. I thought Islam learnt about respecting each other so...please understand.
give myself a chance as if God can give me chances to me so why not human being like us.
those akak are so nice, very nice, i mean sangat baik, but, I'm still scared of these people =P
talk about inner fear and phobia! one day i hope ill be cured MUAHAHA
and the best part of going to usrah is FREE food. ok now I understand why some of my friends ada ska pegi. paham2. food is always the best.

hehehe
anyway, I'm off to do my work
tata
fizah.

i nearly killed myself yesterday

this morning when i woke up, sakit satu badan!
padan muka.
yesterday, i was crossing a big road , and tupp suddenly i felt down, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD.
tapak tangan jatuh dulu, bunyi plak! and then lutut, then baru badan then baru muka.

it was like planking! lebeyh kurang la.cuma tangan ke depan!
malu gilaaaaaaaaaaa
cuz jalan hitam and I was wearing pink.so obvious la.
orang  yang lalu lalang nampak and maybe ada orang gelak
and i got up dengan sakit2 lututnya pegi tepi jalan. gelak kuat2.
i wasnt alone, with Nadiya and Zuraida.
but seriously it was funny
cuz we really dnt knw how i felt down. x der angin , x der ribut, and x der kereta langsung, kelpak bunyi kuat jatuh!
i guess i was lucky .jatuh hari ahad morning so there wasnt lots of car pun.
selamat la. kalo ada kereta sah2 masuk hospital.

Now, my body ache!
rasa mcam cramped.
semalam tak rasa pun. hari ni baru rasa sakit.
haihh
nasib baik hari ni ada 2 kelas ja

eh nope wait i have classes from 10am to 12noon
then 7 to 9 pm.

I cant skipped my night class no matter how lazy or painful my body is.
cuz every monday from 7 pm to 9 pm I have Pottery Class.
and this is the only class that can relax my mind.
and I really really love my pottery class.
15 GBP unlimited access is just awesome!
and i joined the class for another 15 GBP.still worth it .

<3<3<3

Fizah

hey i played with Pee today!

today I had this renal practical. and I had to measure the urine, and get the concentration. I had to really PLAY!!!!! after 2 hours ,I felt like vomiting looking at other peoples' yellowish/orange liquid.
I wanted to be the subject and pee so that I can provide my urine, but the thing is I know that I'm not normal in producing urine. i think I can pee more frequent than everyone else. Cuz I always have to go to toilet minimum 3 times before going to bed. and besides I drank tea this morning, so it will affect the result. and again, I have to throw my pen.ewwwwww pakai glove then kena collect data and tulis.so pegang pen. contamination. okeyh so please give me free pen. :)

thats all

fizah.

E. Coli .

pic from wikipedia~my life savour

Did I mention last week I had experiment involving E. Coli or long name is  Escherichia coli   . I freaked out during the whole experiment cuz hey it was E Coli. I do not want to get stomach infection from this bacteria. I did not take out my glove from 2 to 5 pm. not at all. nak tulis result dalam buku pun, tak buka glove. and at the end of the lab, I threw my pen away, cuz I'm really sure dah contaminated.  and i rushed back home, took a looong shower. ye la kan. takut.

well it happens after every single chemistry and biochemistry practical, I will clean myself with a super loong shower directly after i finish the lab. I feel like i cant do anything else lepas abes lab. rasa macam badan full of chemicals. 

I do enjoy my 9 hours of Lab per week. But i enjoyed physiology the more. I learnt about my lung volume and my heart beat. Apparently, my body health is below the normal average. I have a really small lung volume from the vitalograph, it shows that I need to do more exercise.

But Bristol bukit bukau ya amat, so by the time nak pegi park nak jogging dah penat abes =p

in the end  jogging dalam mimpi laaa

Chemistry and Biochemistry macam gila!!!!!! chemistry seronok tapi experiment dia smua bagi warning dasyat2!!!! - may cause cancer, may cause infertility, may cause..and so on. i do not like all these warnings sebab rasa nervous sampai tangan shaky2 sebab takut!!

Biochemistry plak asyik main dengan urine , blood and benda2 smua la yg boleyh keluar dh badan organisms. ye la sometimes horse blood, ntah mana diorng cilok urine, and kena bau urine. I was like, no way!

Done about practicals :)

Talk about politics. I went to this PAN event.

i know it sounds so weird i would go to this kind of event. but please let me explain. this year in August I'm turning 21. so which means i can register to vote. but until now I dont know what the heck is going on with Malaysia. So as a good Malaysian citizen, I need to know kan. Before this I was in a kelompok yang tak nak amek kisah with whats going on with Malaysia. So now, I think it is the time for me to know.
When I was there, i cant believe i know nothing. hehe true story.
The truth was that I dnt know what they were talking/discussing/debating about. I'm glad a law student sat besides me, so he told me and explain most of the stuff that I dnt know. Well, mybe i dnt understand everythng.
I saw everyone was like so focus listening with serious face but when i was sitting there I wanted to laugh.
i think it would be dangerous to say anything bout what i thought of politics in Malaysia , here in my blog. so i shall keep to myself :)

But hey check out all these awesome people yang datang .  I never thought of taking pics with them masa tu as a proof i went there. lagipun masa tu i met lots of new people. wooww..dah la banyak budak law and economis, smua yang jenis serius. i think i should just stay with my own species hehehe

But at the end of the day, im glad i went there. I stayed at Quraisyias' and Lee Tengs' place. and I met anak Dr Akbar Ali, the first son. and I met so many random people. 

well one of the reason i went there cuz i want to increase my network connections. eh betul ke term ni.

ye la nnti senang nak travel. * niat apa jadahnya ni *

I've been to my friends' house dekat Nottingham , Manchaster , Exeter and London. but i dont like the fact that rumah diorang smua beku mcam dalam peti ais. Here in Bristol, my room is so warm, tido tak payah baju tangan panjang pun. tapi tak tahan la kalo nak tido rasa mcam dalam peti ais. at least dalam aircond ok la . i hate cold yang sejuk smpai terketar-ketar. and if it is really2 cold, my body reaction was pinggang / tulang belakang akan sakit. i know pelik kan, tapi kalo sejuk i have this reaction and i cant walk. my back will hurt so much and i have to lie down and be warm, then only boleyh jalan. kadang-kadang rasa macam kalah orang tua. 

I'll tell my Exeter trip nanti la.

but please be proud of me, since i know ill be busy during the weekends, i have to finish all my works during the weekdays, and i have this awesome time management!

i finished my essays and tutorials and prelab and postlab, awal gilaaaa! i cant believe myself also. 

at night ill be in the library cuz i dont trust myself study kat bilik. nasib baik library dekat, kena panjat bukit ckit ja. stay lepas Magrib dalam pkl 5pm smpai malam la. then balik around 11 pm. or kadang2 awal sebab tak tahan sejuk dah dalam library cuz some spot kat library x rasa heater. and my favourite spot mmg macam kutub utara. dont worry, jalan pegi balik library walaupun gelap and sunyi tapi it is really2 safe. kena turun bukit ckiet je, actually lari most of the time . bukan sebab takut tapi sejuk.

k lah.

i have a class later

right now im kinda suffering in chemistry class. 

:(

fizah

i made fudge and chocolate brownies

Hebat kan?

Please congratulate me.

it was 2 weekends ago..hehe.

Helen taught me how to bake those.

sekejap ja dah abes chocolate brownies. I ate with my Cempakan s seniors. kesian diorang, CNY x dpat balik.

The fudge manisssssssss gila.

bentuk dia x cantek sngt sebab dah terlebih sejuk baru nak potong. sepatutnya masa suam kena potong. but masa tu ralik sembang sangat.

Anyway, mesti spa yg nampak nie teringin? hueheuhuehuehuehuehuehuehue

fizah